Fear

Fear

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Are you afraid? Most of us have some kind of fear. When you identify what’s causing you to fear something, you can choose to do something about it or let it go.

Does this sound familiar? “I’d love to spend more time with ___, but she’s so busy. I don’t want to bother her.” The way this demonstrates fear is your concern that she might say no and you fear being rejected.  You may not realize this is what is happening. If you want to spend more time with her, send her a text, or call her on the phone.

Making up stories that may not be true is easy to do, and you probably don’t recognize that you do that out of fear. While grieving, we may hold on to thoughts or old patterns of behavior out of fear.  Maybe you always went to breakfast on Saturdays with your loved one, and you miss that.  Try finding a new place to go for breakfast and invite a friend to go along. In the new place, people will be less likely to ask you about your loss.

Sometimes the fear is that you will fall apart when you are experiencing the powerful emotions that can come with grief. Know that you won’t fall apart, whatever that may mean.  And if you do find yourself crying, go ahead and cry to release whatever that was that caused you pain. A good cry clears the air like rain does. Release all those feelings that come up while you are crying.

Sometimes we fear something we can’t even define. If you start feeling something you are unfamiliar with that frightens you, try writing about it asking yourself, “Why is this issue bothering me?” Hopefully you’ll discover that what you were feeling frightened of isn’t even real. Or maybe you’ll discover there is something you can do about the issue. When you know why that fear has come up for you, you can let it go so that it will no longer have any power over you.

When you find yourself noticing when fear slips into your life, be prepared and diffuse its power. In the words of Carol Staudacher, “With grief, the way back is the way through.”

While grieving, each day is better than the day before. As you move through your grieving process, notice each time you find yourself smiling or taking a deep breath and know these actions are supporting you in moving forward,

I know you can do this.

 

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Grief and Age

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When my brother-in-law died in his 50’s, I saw a significant change in my sister. Observing her, I saw the balloon of her happiness deflate. She became addicted to watching television and allowed the rest of her life float by as she sat in her recliner. A few years later, a medical emergency hospitalized her, so I drove the five-hour trip to visit her. She was still in her chair. Her daughters told me that she never returned to the bed she had shared with her husband because he died there. I bought her a new bed and redecorated her room while she was hospitalized, so she finally went to bed though she still spent most of her time in that chair.

An article was recently published in the Journal of the American Medical Association, JAMA July 29, 2024, saying how grief can age a person. As I read though all the diagnoses thought to be caused or worsened by grief, my sister had many of them, including a broken heart. Though now I am dealing very well with my grief having learned to live a healthy life, I saw me in that list too. I noticed on that list inflammation and hypertension, also known as high blood pressure. My blood pressure was so high that I had to be seen by a cardiologist.  That doctor told me I had PTSD, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. That made sense to me after caring for two husbands until they died. Fortunately, I saw my blood pressure normalize with treatment.

If you have new symptoms or are having flare ups of previous medical conditions, please go to your doctor. Taking good care of yourself is always a good idea, and it is essential while grieving. I have heard people who are grieving tell me that they just didn’t care about their physical health anymore. Be aware if you are having those thoughts or medical symptoms. Though they may be triggered or worsened by your grief, seek medical help.

While grieving, many people seek help from a therapist. If you’d like to do that, make an appointment.  Talk to others you know who have sought help to see if they can recommend someone, or your doctor may know of a good therapist. Grief groups or Death Cafés can be great support. If you try one and don’t relate to it, try another. You have a vast array to choose from. Try looking online for support, like the Grief and Happiness Alliance weekly gatherings which are free.  You can sign up to attend here. https://www.griefandhappiness.com/the-grief-and-happiness-nonprofit-organization

I suggest you think about any symptoms you have now or worsened conditions you already have. Please seek help in the way that serves you best.

While the JAMA article does indicate that grief can age you, it doesn’t have to if you take really good care of yourself.

 

 

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Unanswered Questions

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Sometimes my husband would tell me stories of his past that were quite fascinating. I always wanted to know more when he reminisced, but he would stop himself from getting immersed in his past. I wish I would have written all the stories he told. His life and accomplishments amazed me.

My husband was estranged from his son from the time he was in college. He didn’t want to talk much about that. They got back together a few years after his dad and I got together. By that time, his son had a great career and was happily married. His dad was thrilled that we got to see them occasionally. His son came to visit us on Maui with his wife and young son. Ron said they had so much to talk about.

After Ron died, his son asked me about what I knew about his dad so he could share this information with his son when he grew up. For most of those questions, I had no idea what the answer was. I chose to write all I could remember about all those wonderful stories he told me so I could share that with them. I was disappointed when I could only remember a few pages.

All the lost stories are permanently gone. As I thought about all the stories I would love to hear about my parents, I realized they are lost too. My sister knew some of them because she was 9 years older and remembered everything, but those stories also disappeared with her passing.

I have started a new journal to write the memories I know I’d like to share. I’ll be sure to let my children know where it is so they can read it if they want to.  I will also ask them if there are things they would like to know from me so that I can tell them now. I have so many relatives and friends who had stories I would have loved to hear, but those stories died when they did.

Now is the time to ask the questions you are curious about. Ask those questions now.

I have started a new journal to write the memories I know I’d like to share. I’ll be sure to let my children know where it is so they can read it if they want to.  I will also ask them if there are things they would like to know from me so that I can tell them now. I have so many relatives and friends who had stories I would have loved to hear, but those stories died when they did.

Now is the time to ask the questions you are curious about. Ask those questions now.

 

 

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Choose!

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When I woke up this morning, I was so inspired! It felt wonderful. While I was still in bed, I opened my eyes and looked at the clock and it was 11:11. Oh no! I had slept half the day. I needed to get up right away. Then I actually opened my eyes and realized that was a dream and it was 6:30, closer to my usual time to wake. “Whew.” I took a deep breath to release the panic, and started my morning with the fresh energy that came from being startled.

As I started to write in my journal, I realized all that was a wink from my dear departed husband, Ron. January 1, 2011, or 1 1 11, was the day we got married. That clock in my dream was from him. I laughed and could just see his great big smile. This inspiration led me to plan a great day, starting with getting dressed in clothes I could wear outside.  I’ve been hibernating for a while, but today I chose to dress for walking.  The sun is shining, and I am ready!

I recently had the opportunity to see singer, songwriter Karen Drucker give a talk. She was bubbling with energy and smiles. She said, “Today choose to be grateful, happy, peaceful, loving, joyful, and mindful.” That’s a lot! And it sounds like a perfect day to me.

Thanks, Karen, for that inspiration. I am writing it in my journal to remind me to choose all this every day!

I have a big talk coming up at a conference in Las Vegas. I’ve been working on it for a while, and today with all that fresh energy, the entire concept for what I will say poured out of me. I could see myself on that stage, smiling and engaging the audience so they were entranced with my message. That all came to me because I chose today to be positive, to pay attention to inspiration, to enjoy my day, and to be creative.

I hope today will be fabulous for you, too! Follow Karen’s advice and see what happens! This blog is a little shorter than usual today because I have a walk to go on!  Bye! See you later!

 

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The Staircase

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“Faith is taking the first step even when you can’t see the whole staircase.”

–Martin Luther King

 

Often those dealing with grief have no idea what their future holds which can be crippling. While grief isn’t something you get over, you can learn to move forward in your grief. But how can you do that if you have no idea what moving forward means?

When a loved one dies, the people who remain deal with many losses such as:

  • Loss of future goals, like together buying a home, traveling, or retiring
  • Loss of your loved one’s presence at weddings and graduations
  • Loss of the 50th wedding anniversary you were looking forward to
  • Loss of grandchildren you may not get to know or even meet
  • Loss of communication, or having someone to talk to

While dealing with losses like these, the idea of your future may be difficult to imagine, and you may be stuck in the beauty of the past or the anguish of the present. And you have no idea what the future holds now.

The truth is, as wonderful or as challenging your past has been, there is no going back. Do treasure your good memories from the past, but focus on now.  You may have had great plans for the future that are not possible now. So again, it’s time to focus on now. What can you do today to best help you prepare for your new life?

Have faith that each step you take on the staircase to the future is an opportunity to live your very best life now. Know that staircase is there to support you on your journey.  Use your present circumstances wisely to foster decisions that allow you to keep moving on up having faith that you are making the decisions necessary to ease your journey.

After Ron died, I couldn’t even see the first step of the staircase. To find a starting point, I journaled. As I wrote, I recognized what was missing; the purpose that had been guiding my life and actions no longer existed.  Once I knew that, my life opened up for me. As I formed a group to write about dealing with grief, more opportunities came my way to help others who were also dealing with grief.

I sought inspiration each day as I was writing in my journal. With my focus on helping my peers along their grief journeys, ideas easily flowed to me. This led me to a fulfilling life full of joy. I have many new friends, and I cherish the friendships I have gathered throughout my life. I love all I do now and am happier than I ever have been. My current life is rooted in positivity allowing me to see that staircase as a map leading to new journey forward.

Are you ready to step on to that stairway? Or if you are there now, do you keep moving on up? You can do it!  I have faith in you.

 

 

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What Side of the Bed Do You Get Up On?

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When I was young, I remember my mom saying that I woke up on the wrong side of the bed, and I couldn’t figure out what she was talking about. I shared a bed with my sister and we slept on the same side every night. I was on the left. She was on the right. And what difference did that make anyway?

As I reflect, I know now that she was talking about the attitude I woke up with, and that was rarely happy. Every day seemed the same, doing what I had to do. I was mostly lonely, and it seemed like no one cared what I did. So I did what I thought I was supposed to, and that was to be good.

My definition of being good changed throughout my life. It boiled down to doing the best I could, the most I could, but that never seemed to be enough. When I needed to make a decision, I would always wonder what my parents would expect me to do. It took a long time for me to see that I could do what I wanted to do and just be responsible to me for my decisions.

Whew! What a relief! My imagination became my guide. My choices became my own. I loved who brought joy to both of us. I quit a job I thought I was supposed to do and created a business I was passionate about. I lived where it was beautiful. And I manifested a life I had only dreamed about before.

Then my husband died. I felt so empty, so blank. I struggled to find who I was without him and what was next. Gradually, the broken pieces of my heart began to mend by taking care of myself and loving myself allowing me to love someone else again.

Then my next love, my next husband, died. While mourning, I decided loving again would be impossible, that I couldn’t live through it. Gradually, the memory of how my broken heart was able to heal in the past allowed me to focus on me again. I knew I was strong and the key to living had always been taking care of me.

Contemplation and exploration of this concept stitched my heart back together allowing my love to become stronger than ever, and now, it’s me who I love.

I nourish my heart with the unconditional happiness and love that causes it to beat as I pass that love and happiness forward. I see the warmth of my smile reflected to me allowing me the great comfort of knowing I finally have figured out how to live my very best life.

Now I get up on the right side of the bed every day and am grateful for my commitment to love and happiness.

What side of the bed to you get up on? You can change that if you choose.

 

 

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