Self-Care

Say It Now!

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I feel so fortunate now that for all my loved ones who have transitioned, I was able to say whatever I wanted them to know before they died. That is such a good feeling.

Feeling like I had no more I had to say freed me to have wonderful conversations with these people. We were able to talk about anything we wanted to because we weren’t holding anything back. My mother had an inoperable brain tumor which interfered with her ability to communicate in the present, but her past memories were crystal clear, so I was able to hear about my family’s history I wouldn’t have known otherwise.

I have a dear friend who I lost touch with for many years, and when we reconnected, it felt like we had never been apart. We didn’t need to spend time on the past though because the present was real and happening now. This gave a different slant to our relationship than we used to have. And I love her even more.

My husband Ron and I had lived full lives before we met. Our experiences were wide and varied, but we didn’t dwell there.  We got to know each other as we were in that moment. That was freeing. I was able to let go of past experiences which no longer served me because they really didn’t matter to me anymore.  This made our conversations relevant and interesting. By the time he died, we were complete and whole.

On the other hand, Ron hadn’t had much of a relationship with his son for years. His son came to me with questions about his dad after he died, and I couldn’t answer. I could see that he wished he would have asked sooner. The realization that he could no longer find the answers he longed for was difficult for him. Something like this can be devastating.

Are you holding back an important conversation with someone you love? How would you feel if suddenly you would never have the conversation or make amends, or tell the truth?

Now is your opportunity to speak up. What question do you want or feel the need to have an answer about? What deep feelings do you want to express yet never found the right moment?

Instead of just thinking about these things that are important to you, do something now.

Make a phone call, write a letter, or send a text to make arrangements to see someone face to face, even if it is on a screen, then say what you need to say. Say it now. You will be so glad you did!

 

 

Get your Awaken Your Happiness Journaling Guide at no charge by clicking here: https://www.griefandhappiness.com/pl/2147595767

You can join the Grief and Happiness Alliance which meets weekly on Sundays by clicking here: https://www.griefandhappiness.com/offers/ytK7eLBa

You can order Loving and Living Your Way Through Grief by clicking here at Amazon.

https://www.amazon.com/Loving-Living-Your-Though-Grief/dp/1642504823/ref=tmm_pap_swatch_0?_encoding=UTF8&qid=1658356016&sr=8-1

You can listen to my podcast, Grief and Happiness, here. https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/loving-and-living-your-way-through-grief-with/id1509589686?i=1000535381763

Reawakening Grief

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Every day when I wake up, I remember waking up in that room with my amazing husband. We considered that room our sacred space. Most mornings I wake happy and grateful to have spent ten years in his arms and heart. Then sometimes I wake up empty. On days like that, I know to pay attention.

When we get reminders of our loved ones, it seems to me that they are sending messages.  I sit now on my lanai, Hawaiian word for patio, in the same chair I sat in while Ron was in the chair next to me.  I feel his comfort and presence in this lovely space. I know he inspires me as I write, and that we are still helping people together. In moments like this, I experience that joy that comes with grief when you get to the point of acceptance of your loss.

Think about places you can be or go that were special to you and your loved one.  When you are there, sometimes there may be tears with the overflow of your love dripping out. Feel that feeling. Experience that experience. The more you do, the more comfort you will grow into with those memories.  The space of your grief expands to allow the happiness and joy you crave as you remember.

Whenever your grief reawakens, sit with it.  Contemplate it. What is it telling you? Some people feel that grief is always sad and needs to be avoided, but when you sit with it, spending time with precious memories, seeing how these memories inspire you now as you move foreword can feel like a precious hug from your loved one, letting you know all is well and that the love you shared is eternal.

I heard someone say, if your memories are not giving you the answers you are looking for, maybe you are remembering the wrong ones. What memories can you focus on to bring you the inspiration and comfort you are seeking? Those are the memories to cherish.

 

 

Get your Awaken Your Happiness Journaling Guide at no charge by clicking here: https://www.griefandhappiness.com/pl/2147595767

You can join the Grief and Happiness Alliance which meets weekly on Sundays by clicking here: https://www.griefandhappiness.com/offers/ytK7eLBa

You can order Loving and Living Your Way Through Grief by clicking here at Amazon.

https://www.amazon.com/Loving-Living-Your-Though-Grief/dp/1642504823/ref=tmm_pap_swatch_0?_encoding=UTF8&qid=1658356016&sr=8-1

You can listen to my podcast, Grief and Happiness, here. https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/loving-and-living-your-way-through-grief-with/id1509589686?i=1000535381763

Want to Feel Good?

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Did you know that you can contribute to your own feeling good? You may be surprised that you do without even realizing what you are up to. Our miraculous bodies are always working to serve us to live our best lives, but they can do even better with a little help from us.

When we are grieving, our minds may try to convince us that we can’t smile or laugh or that we don’t deserve to feel good. Unfortunately, many of us listen to that negative often because we just don’t have the energy to object. Fortunately though, you have mighty endorphins in your body who would love to come to your rescue!

Meet your superhero Endy the Endorphin! Endy is an old name which has many meanings including Magical woman, loyal, kind, sweet, and strong. Knowing that Endy resides in all of us, and she is happy to serve can bring us much comfort! She can release feel good chemicals like dopamine, serotonin, and oxytocin.

Here are some of the many benefits of experiencing the joys endorphins.

  • Reduced Depression
  • Improved self- esteem
  • Reduced Anxiety
  • Reduced pain
  • A boosted immunity
  • Regulated appetite https://bit.ly/3RJbuXj (source)

What do you need to do to call in your new best friend Endy the Endorphan?  It’s easy! Just issue your clarion call to Endy by generating a big smile, or better yet laughter, even a big belly laugh. This simple process that we all can do invites Endy to release all those lovely endorphins that light us up like when we get a big loving hug from someone special, or when you find out you’re going to be a grandparent, or when you see the most beautiful rainbow you can imagine.

What are you waiting for? Look n the mirror and see how big you can make your beautiful smile knowing that Endy’s help is on the way!

 

 

Get your Awaken Your Happiness Journaling Guide at no charge by clicking here: https://www.griefandhappiness.com/pl/2147595767

You can join the Grief and Happiness Alliance which meets weekly on Sundays by clicking here: https://www.griefandhappiness.com/offers/ytK7eLBa

You can order Loving and Living Your Way Through Grief by clicking here at Amazon.

https://www.amazon.com/Loving-Living-Your-Though-Grief/dp/1642504823/ref=tmm_pap_swatch_0?_encoding=UTF8&qid=1658356016&sr=8-1

You can listen to my podcast, Grief and Happiness, here. https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/loving-and-living-your-way-through-grief-with/id1509589686?i=1000535381763

Waiting . . . .

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Have you ever thought about how much time you spend waiting? Where do you wait? Often, we are in line at the bank, the grocery store, the fast food place, the post office, the car pool lane; or we wait at the doctor’s office, the airport, the dentist’s office, the restaurant.  How often to you wait for someone or something?  Maybe you are waiting to hear if you got a loan, what grades you earned, a package coming in the mail. Just think about the hours of your life that you spend passively waiting.

I have thumbed through magazines I wasn’t interested in waiting for appointments. I have spent way too much time in lines at airports hoping I won’t miss my flight. I’ve spent time waiting for that special invitation to arrive. I also spend time at night waiting to fall asleep. I am sure if I added all these minutes and hours, it would add up to maybe years of my life.  When I paid attention to this, I decided I must change my ways.

I used to play solitaire on my phone while waiting until I started thinking that I was just wasting my valuable time.  Now I keep a book to read and a book and podcast to listen to on my phone instead. Other times I realize how freeing it is to not be looking at my phone.  Sometimes I look around me and seek the most beautiful thing I can see. Other times I see if I can get someone to smile just by smiling at them. And I’ve made new friends by striking up a conversation with someone waiting where I am waiting too.

I used to wait until my pile of important papers got too high before I decided to file them.  This just makes a mess. Or I wait too long to do the laundry till the task seems overwhelming.  Now I pay attention to when I am doing something like this so I will do things sooner when it doesn’t take so long.

What does this have to do with grief? This can start before a loved one dies. You’ll find yourself worrying about what test results will be or how a treatment or surgery will affect your loved one, and how those results will affect your life. You may find yourself waiting for someone you love to die because it breaks your heart to see them suffer, then you feel guilty for even considering that. After a loved one passes, we may be waiting to feel better or for our grief to be over. We may even find ourselves waiting to die so we don’t have to be alone anymore.

My question for you is, how does any of this waiting serve you? In my case, most often I see that waiting doesn’t serve me at all. I realized how many moments were passing me by, wasted.  And I realized how valuable those moments are. Waking up to this allowed me to make use of those moments in ways it serves me.

I seek ways to complete tasks sure, but beyond that, I seek ways to make each moment the best it can be.  For instance, in a moment I could write a note or address a card to someone I would like to cheer up, to stay in contact with, or to just tell them I love them. I could take a moment to take a deep breath and blow out any tension I am holding. I could take a moment to appreciate the beauty of a flower I see. I could take a moment to discover a healthy recipe I could make.

Ron and I had a big bottle we’d but our change in so that it didn’t weigh down our pockets or my purse.  When the bottle got full, we would dump it into the machine at the bank that sorted and counted it. Usually, we were surprised by what the total was, and we’d always use that money to do something special that we wouldn’t have otherwise.

Think of your moments of waiting as valuable currency that you could put in a bottle or a special bank just for moments. When you add up all those moments that you lost waiting in the past, in the present now you can use what you have recognized or saved to make special moments for yourself and your loved ones that you thought you didn’t have time for.

Every single moment is valuable. Experiencing each of those moments with love and joy rather that stress and anguish is a gift that you can give yourself every day, every moment.  You will be so glad you did.

 

Get your Awaken Your Happiness Journaling Guide at no charge by clicking here: https://www.griefandhappiness.com/pl/2147595767

You can join the Grief and Happiness Alliance which meets weekly on Sundays by clicking here: https://www.griefandhappiness.com/offers/ytK7eLBa

You can order Loving and Living Your Way Through Grief by clicking here at Amazon.

https://www.amazon.com/Loving-Living-Your-Though-Grief/dp/1642504823/ref=tmm_pap_swatch_0?_encoding=UTF8&qid=1658356016&sr=8-1

You can listen to my podcast, Grief and Happiness, here. https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/loving-and-living-your-way-through-grief-with/id1509589686?i=1000535381763

Happy Days

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I facilitate the Grief and Happiness Alliance every week on Zoom.  Each week we do some writing related to our situations and we end with learning different happiness practices. Every gathering ends with the participants smiling. Being around people who are also grieving or dealing with loss is a great place to share and get support.

This week, instead of our usual format, we wrote about happiness.  We started with a short meditation where I encouraged the participants to remember times in their lives when they were especially happy. Then I asked them to make a list of things they have been happy about. They didn’t need to write about each experience, just identify it.  For instance, I was happy at my wedding to Ron and my wedding to Jacques.  I could have written a big, long story about each of these and all the other things I thought of. But I stuck with making a list, and by the end of the meeting, I had over 70 items on my list!

We all wrote long lists and enjoyed sharing our favorite happy moments. All the participants found joy in our moments together.  I am sharing this with you to encourage you to make a list like this too!  Aim for at least 100 things.  I know that sounds like a lot, but the more your write, the more you will think of, and the more you will smile.

And it doesn’t have to end there.  If you get to a point where you are feeling a little down, get out your journal and your list.  Pick one thing on the list and write about it in detail including everything that made you happy during that experience.  The more often you do this, the more often you will feel yourself smiling and the longer that happiness will last.

Every morning when I write in my journal, I write about what brought me the most joy the day before. This is a great way to start my days.  It also keeps me thinking throughout the day about what is bringing me happiness. What you focus on is what you experience. You can be so much happier just by focusing on happiness!  Try it and let me know how good it feels.

 

Get your Awaken Your Happiness Journaling Guide at no charge by clicking here: https://www.griefandhappiness.com/pl/2147595767

You can join the Grief and Happiness Alliance which meets weekly on Sundays by clicking here: https://www.griefandhappiness.com/offers/ytK7eLBa

You can order Loving and Living Your Way Through Grief by clicking here at Amazon.

https://www.amazon.com/Loving-Living-Your-Though-Grief/dp/1642504823/ref=tmm_pap_swatch_0?_encoding=UTF8&qid=1658356016&sr=8-1

You can listen to my podcast, Grief and Happiness, here. https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/loving-and-living-your-way-through-grief-with/id1509589686?i=1000535381763

Carrying the Weight

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“Grief doesn’t get lighter. You just get used to carrying the weight”

Virgin River

 

When I heard this quote, I thought that it says much. I remember the many times in my life when I was going to start a new project that it would seem overwhelming.  When I was inspired to write my book, Loving and Living Your Way Through Grief, initially the project seemed so huge and intimidating, yet I knew that in my heart I was committed to writing something that would help others. So, I started.

I had a list of Chapter titles that included what I wanted to say in each chapter, but I started with the introduction.  In hindsight, writing the Introduction much later would probably have been easier. I wrote the introduction, then I wrote it again, then I revised that.  I had someone else read it, and I wrote it again. The more I wrote, the more that voice in my head was trying to talk me out of writing the book at all.  When I realized this, I sat the Introduction aside and started writing the chapters.

The process of writing that introduction made the work of writing feel heavier with every word. When I started writing the chapters, I discovered I was warmed up and ready to go.  Just as runners take time to stretch before they start to race, I had been warming up my writing skills. And the more I wrote, the easier it got.  I formed a routine of researching what the chapter was about to see what others had already written. Then I would do some brainstorming to discover the main points of the chapter would be. When I was ready, I wrote the chapter in one sitting. Then I set it aside for a couple of days before I read when I had written with fresh eyes.

After I wrote all the chapters, I read the whole book, then read the original introduction again. I was amazed at all the changes I made in the introduction. I was so glad I hadn’t stopped working on the introduction because what I wrote for the introduction after I read the whole book was so much better.

What does all this have to do with grief?  Some describe early grief as feeling a heavy weight on your chest making breathing difficult. Your body may feel heavy as you try to get out of bed or up from a chair. Your feet and legs feel heavy when you try to walk.  Nothing feels normal. This heaviness is common in early grief. Many people find themselves not eating much to avoid more heaviness. Recognizing this is happening is a good start. And as you move forward, probably more slowly than you would like to, the heaviness you are carrying starts to lighten.

You still miss your loved one, and you always will.  You are not trying to forget your loved one or to get over your, loss, but each day, everything lightens a little. There will come a time when you tend not to remember that early heaviness, and you realize how much better you are feeling.

If you are carrying a heavy load of grief right now, what can you do to lighten up? Getting out in nature, taking a walk, spending time with someone you love. All these things and more will help melt that weight away. You have come so far, and you realize now that you are carrying the love of your loved one instead of the weight of your loss, and you feel so much better!

 

 

 

Get your Awaken Your Happiness Journaling Guide at no charge by clicking here: https://www.griefandhappiness.com/pl/2147595767

You can join the Grief and Happiness Alliance which meets weekly on Sundays by clicking here: https://www.griefandhappiness.com/offers/ytK7eLBa

You can order Loving and Living Your Way Through Grief by clicking here at Amazon.

https://www.amazon.com/Loving-Living-Your-Though-Grief/dp/1642504823/ref=tmm_pap_swatch_0?_encoding=UTF8&qid=1658356016&sr=8-1

You can listen to my podcast, Grief and Happiness, here. https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/loving-and-living-your-way-through-grief-with/id1509589686?i=1000535381763