We’ve all known someone like Debbie Downer of Saturday Night Live. She’s the person you walk the other way from when she starts walking toward you. Everything about her is negative. When she wants to tell you a story, it’s always sad. I can recall a time when I was Debbie Downer. It seemed like everything in my life was miserable. My husband was always ill, sometimes critically. I felt like there was nothing positive in my life, and I didn’t even have the energy to smile.
Being chronically sad was a tough place to be. After my husband died, I realized how negatively I had been acting. I didn’t like that, and I could see that my actions repelled people who didn’t want to join me under the dark cloud where I was always standing. I realized change required leaving the darkness behind and moving toward the light. I had to be the light.
Old habits aren’t easy to break. I had been displaying my sad face for so long, I had to teach myself to smile again. I kept on the lookout for reasons to smile. I love to go on walks, and I like to take pictures of flowers and nature. I made a conscious effort to smile at all the flowers and rainbows. We have so many rainbows in Hawaii. The more I smiled, the better I felt about smiling, so I started smiling at people too. Seeing people smile back was almost like a big hug.
I knew I could break my heart open by finding moments of joy in everything I did or saw, so I started searching for those moments, and it turned out to be a delightful challenge. The happier I allowed myself to be, the less I had to try. I would gravitate toward smiling, happy people, and they would smile back!
Now I often say that I am happier than I ever have been, and that feels so good! Being deeply happy is well worth the effort. Smile!
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